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So it's been brought to my attention that maybe the kids staying in MB till the end of the school year is in their best interests.....hmmmmm tough call on that one....I haven't had my kids beside me in over two months and I feel very incomplete without them...I have brought this up for discussion with them and I'm letting them talk it over and letting them decide...we have said that we'd like them here sooner than later but they've done such a good job in school and life since their mom and I split up that I don't want to screw that up either...Bailey has already said that July is too long to wait but we'll see what is decided in the next couple weeks.

Now that being said let me clear the air a little for the foggy minds out there in narrow minded land....I have no master plan in life....I have no alterior motives....all I'm trying to do in life is raise my kids to be good kids and they are doing a great job, be happy, be loved, and to love and support someone back. I do not, nor have I ever manipulated anyone, everyone is free to decide what they want. Ask any of my FRIENDS....not other's who don't know anything...There was never any option for me to purchase any business other than the one that I did....all other talk of anything else comes from I don't know where...I believe I've said in other rants why my business closed, what my decisions were and to this day I do not regret them. I wish life had turned out different but I always play the hands I'm dealt and proceed to move forward even if it's one step at a time.

Sam has moved to Saskatoon with me and the kids to follow....I didn't force her to move here, I opened up her mind to the possibilites for her out here....and to have a SUPPORT system in place. She is not here to be my babysitter, my maid, (I cook better anyways) or my slave, I stand beside Sam in everything she does, I support her like many others should and aren't, I encourage her and I believe in her like no one else. She has so much potential to go so many places in life, and if in those places is an old divorced guy and a couple kids and we make each other happy then that will be mission accomplished. My kids, all of them love, support and believe in Sam, we all see a future together, we all see great things, we don't look through starry eyes, I've seen and been through way too much to look through anything but my own eyes, I've been through enough bullshit and drama to know how and to avoid it. I don't have time for it....I may live in a small town but I am not small town....I'm real...I have no agenda, I have no motives, hell I have no money and rich, lavish possessions but what I do have is EVERYTHING....4 amazing, wonderful, good kids, I have a girlfriend that loves me, supports me, believes in me....and some outstanding friends and awesome family....you tell me, what really does anyone want....if you haven't already, you need to look at Sam, the kids and myself....see how we are together, see how we make so much out of so little, see how we love spending time together doing anything and doing nothing....Sam is such a beautiful, talented, loving person and needs to be supported, not manipulated and discouraged. She's a very strong woman in her beliefs, she has chosen to have never had a drink in her life which amazes me and impresses me....she is her own person and one that I never want to change, or rely on or mooch off of....well maybe mooch a little once she becomes more successful than me ;)

I have been taught in life and I teach my kids not to judge a person on looks, age, money, success.....we are all who we are, we are individuals that make up a very complex world and we're here to not change people but to change the world or our part of it anyways by our actions and how we live our lives. I'm not about to ignore happiness for any of those reasons.....I love Sam very much, I believe in her and I will stand beside her for the rest of my life because she deserves it, she deserves me and my kids and I deserve her....

I'm done ......hopefully for the last time although I never tire of talking about Sam and the kids I do feel a bit repetative for those of you who can't seem to hear very well....

I'll see ya when I see ya!