Well then....

So on my bucket list I have ...."go to Vegas" not that I'm big into gambling but I've always wanted to see the city....and after doing some nosing around the internet today and going by one of my favorite musicians website, I found out that Garth Brooks is out of retirement and now playing a show every so often in Vegas....it's a one man show, it's very personal and I'd love to see it...he's there for the next 5 years so I actually have a chance on this one.

I've always loved Garth and I'm not a huge country music fan. What I am is a music fan and if you've ever had the privelage of seeing Garth live...which I have....it's an amazing show that he puts on....so much energy, so much life, and it's about the music and the fans....what more do you want....

Garth Brooks retired when he was still climbing to the top, he chose to stay home, with his girls, I believe he was still married at the time, but soon that fell apart, but it was important to him to not miss out on his girls lives....he is still very good friends with his first wife but also remarried in the mean time and they make it all work and that's why he's doing this show. They've made it so that he can still be home to take his girls to school and pick them up and watch their sports etc...awesome....his youngest is 13 and when she's off to college then hopefully he will tour again.

Now you may be wondering why in the blue blazes am I giving you the low down on all this.....well it's because I'd love to meet the man that puts everything behind what's important....someone asked him in his press conference about who's opinion on what he was doing mattered....or something along that lines...his response was..." no offence to any of you but the only opinions that matter are my 3 girls....my wife, and the girls mom.....and it was like I was saying it out loud.....I lost everything that I thought mattered....business, marriage, money, possessions.....all for the best of my kids....and in that I found that the only thing that matters, that I need, that I desire is them and to see them happy, and succeed and to enjoy everyday....

In that process I met a gorgeous girl named Sam, who taught me what it was like to love again, to be loved, she came into our lives when we had nothing, no money, no house, nothing fancy, bare bones really, and she loved every time she was with us....I never promised her a thing from day 1, was very guarded with myself in fear of being hurt, guarded the kids as they had dealt with enough already, she said I love you 4 months before I ever did, but that never scared her away...so much is said about Sam and I and it's mostly because I'm older, have 4 kids, am divorced, lost all my money, which of course makes me a bad risk, bad for her, and a loser because of something stupid I may have done somewhere in my past "29" years ;)

Well here comes my favorite part....all those who think that I am wrong for her....YOU'RE WRONG! We are very open, honest, and greatful for what we have, what we can provide for each other, love, support, friendship, the kids, she loves my kids so much and doesn't ever want to replace their mom only wants to be a part of their lives. My kids love her to pieces, respect her, look up to her, and really what more could I want. Yup, you bet, I've screwed up in my life, I screwed up in my marriage, we both did, I've had a lot of jobs, I've never been able to afford luxeries.....but what I have is 4 amazing, wonderful kids, I have a wealth of knowledge, some learnt the hard way, at my fingertips, I have found someone that regardless of pasts, age, support from others, I love more than I've ever loved someone and it's not to relive my youth, once was enough, it's not a mid life crisis, it's because, since my split from my ex wife, I've been in a pursuit for happiness, first I had to make myself right, through the help of Pastor Tim and accepting God into my life, I'm a much better person than I've ever been and continue to work on myself everyday, my kids benefit from it, so does Sam, and I hope too that my ex will benefit from it as well.....Sam taught me that's it's ok to love, and be loved, my kids taught me that it didn't matter where we lived or what we had, it was about being together, and being a family.

I've had a long life for a young guy, some by choices made, others I had no control over, but I sit here today, jacked that Garth is coming out of retirement, content with recent decisions that I've made in my life, proud of my 4 kids, in awe of my beautiful girlfriend who proves to me everyday how wonderful she is, loving, caring and how big her heart really is. She has stood by me with so much already, supported all my decisions and gives me heck when a swear word comes out and I love it. For the first time in long time I feel like the luckiest guy in the world. For all the things mentioned above, for some amazing friends who have walked and talked this journey I call life along with me, and I feel very blessed to call Greg, Candace, Chris, Karla, Kelsie, Sandy, Kevin, Sarah, Dean, Marilyn, Ricki, Raelene, Courtney, Kennedy, Buzz, Craig, Bryan, Tash, Sam, Becky, Dan, Beth, Jennifer, Bailey, Brooklyn, Cassidy, Sam, Mark and Steph, my friend....the names are in no order, but everyone of these people helped me get to where I am today, broke and happy ;) but on my way to bigger and better things, but always, always putting the kids, and Sam first.

I can't wait to see Garth, I can't wait to see the future, I can't wait to see my kids and Sam succeed and with the support of one another, the only way we can go is up.....

See ya when I see ya....