Gah!

What a weekend...long, and not a good long...had my full time employee take off to Calgary to use "free" Grey Cup tickets....put me in for long hours at the shop and by the time I'm outta here will be 11 days straight...not fun....oh well we'll deal with him when he's back....

Looking very forward to seeing the kids and Sam this weekend...should have a few surprises for all involved ;)

Having some, of course, money issues with the ex but whatever...not much I'll do about it now...

Bay's hockey coach's dad is in the hospital awaiting heart surgery, sounded like a pretty scary scene on the ice but all sounds good, and hopefully should pull through better than ever

It's funny how these times remind you of how precious our gift of life is and to make sure you tell everyone important to you that you love them which I do anyways on a daily basis...I've come a long way in the two years that Pam and I split and thanks to some great friends, Pastor Tim, and accepting God into my life, I've seen things in a better light, controlled my emotions better, my anger, and the way I approach life.

My kids are better off because of it, Sam and I will benefit from it, so I'm glad it happened, I am and will be a happier person from it.

There's been a lot of comparison or more so emphasis on who Turk is....or who people think Turk is...I am who I am...I'm not the same guy you knew in High School, I'm not the same guy that got married in 1994 or had kids in 1995....I"m not the same guy I was 2 years ago or even last week...THANK GOODNESS!!! I am still that guy from all those years but all those life experiences taught me so much, all my poor decisions, all my mistakes, all of it has made me who I am today cause I decided to learn from everything I did...does that make me a bad person now? Hell no, it makes me a better person...Yes I drank when I was younger, yes I was an angry ass too, but I've never had a drinking problem or physically hit anyone....I could right now get angry and upset with my ex regarding the money issue but really that's not the road I want to travel, like I said it will work itself out...I'm not trying to be stuck up or better than anyone, the only person I want to be better than is me, everyday challenging myself to be a better person than I was yesterday....I still make mistakes, I falter I'm not perfect....but I"m human....to hear things about me and not ask me about them is judging me, if ya wanna know ask me....see for yourself....take the time to get to know me....my marriage was 50% my fault...although it wasn't good I stayed true to my beliefs and my vows and never strayed and never wanted anything but for it to work....it didn't...I took that time to fix Turk, who he was, how he handled life...and to help my kids through a crappy time....I did that and thankful I did that....in to my life walked Sam and she's been one of the most amazing people to ever touch my heart, and my kids hearts...we have been through the rumour mill and a lot has been said about us...enough that either one of us could have walked and wouldn't have blamed the other.... but we've stood by one another, been very open and honest, and feel there's something there worth fighting for....Sams quite a bit younger than I am but as a person she's very much my equal if not more....she's a great role model for my kids, and I can't imagine my life without her and I was very close to losing her.....there was no one's approval that I needed for Sam although my kids opinions were very high on my list....I'll never apologize for wanting to be happy and finding happiness in Sam...I"m not trying to relive my youth, or be young again, I've said it for a while, I'm in my pursuit of happiness and with Sam, my kids, the move to Saskatoon, I'm well on my way...I deserve it and damn proud to be where I am, thanks to my friends, Pastor Tim, God, Sam and my kids....

see ya when I see ya!