For a Fox

By chance you walked into my life
What started as a simple hello
Turned into a lifetime of memories

I was closed, guarded, and scared to move
You never ran away, you never got angry
When I needed space, space was given
When I needed to be held, you were right by my side

I hid you from my kids, I hid you from the world
I was trying to protect you when I should have been showing you off.

They say what we have is unhealthy
But my kids proved them wrong
When they see you they open their arms
And their hearts are full of you.

You've taught me that it doesn't matter what I have or how much I have.
All that matters is who I am
And you've made me a better man.

If I had the choice, knowing the outcome, to change the last five months
I wouldn't change a thing
Thank you for everyday we've been together
There will never be anyone like you, my Fox!

Sunday

Starting to pack up and had back to Mb....had a great, fantastic, wonderful night last night and even ran into an old school friend I haven't seen since grade 8, by chance. They raised over $2500 for mom and played some great music so a good night.

So I'll get ready over here and head out to meet Raelene for lunch and then off I go on the dusty trail.....let the craziness begin!

Saturday

So it's Saturday and I'm no further ahead in any, oh I don't know, decisions that I have to make.....NOT that I'm not thinking about them but still no further. Pam does know and I am waiting to hear back on what her thoughts are and yes those thoughts do matter as this move affects her as well because of the kids. We need to keep our communication lines open for the best interests of our kids.

So tonight we're off for mom's benefit blues jam night and it won't be an early night. And I'm driving back tomorrow sometime as it's back to what's normal for now.

I can text that much so read it here!

OK so I had my interview today at the sports store, well glorified skate shop that Chris and I had in Altona....Man do they want me...everything I asked for they said yes to, there is a huge opportunity for me to grow within this company, way better money than I'm making now, benefits for my kids, just an overall good fit. Now comes the hard part, making the final decision. Making the move, it involves me and 4 kids and an ex wife....but bottom line is I"m a dad and I need to provide for my kids the best way that I can while giving us all some kind of future.....what's my decision.... ha ha ha no clue....stay tuned....it's gonna get interesting.

Times are changing??

So I'm the night before I leave and still not nervous but looking forward to gtting there. Currently I work for a lawn care company. They are friends of mine and have been more than wonderful to me. I received my paycheque yesterday and unfortunately thanks to rain days I was $100 short of a normal pay day...well I came home a little bummed and decided to check the mail at least once this week and in there was an envelope with an Altona return address...curiosity made me open it before I left for home and wouldn't you know it there was a cheque for $100. I bought a ticket earlier for $20 to support our local Jr.baseball team and I guess they picked my name! Great timing I must say!!

Probably won't post tomorrow as its a travel day for me, but you'll hear from me soon...

week 1

So I'm heading to saskatoon this weekend to hear my offer from the general manager @ Jemini. I'm excited, not nervous cause pretty sure they want me. What I do feel is the overwhelming starting cause the next couple months is gonna be nutz! I've spent soo much time thinking about what to do and the common thing has been that its something I have to try. The final two were carla harris and chris, the best friend a guy could have and chris said, "buddy, if you don't at least try you'll regret it" plus he said he's been prayin for me. His opinion I respect so much as he's always been a stand up guy/friend/brother! So not much else to say until either friday if I find time or saturday. Until then, thanks for reading! Love y'all!

so here we start

So I'm about to embark on the biggest change in my life since I left home @ 17 and I thought I'd start this up so people that matter or care, if they do can follow me and my craziness. I hope you enjoy and follow! :)